So Recently over the last 4 months I've been in England.... These four months have been ... lol
I am blogging out of lack of anyone to talk to!
No one will read this, no one will know, no one really cares because I don't even care what I have to say......
So there are a few things I've learned.... I love to read (more than I knew I did), I love and need music more than I though and I do hate being alone. haha. I knew these things but thought they could change- thought I'd enjoy walking the streets alone and seeing movies alone and all that stuff. I don't. I enjoy people. Anyone really. I'm not picky when it comes to people but I am picky when it comes to food.
I do have some favorite people that I meet.... The people from Poland are so kind (not nice but kind), humble and giving. I also enjoyed the Scottish people.... they are friendly and enjoy life in the moment. Very entertaining..... <3.>
So I LOVE Europe or at least i did. Ha.... Since I've been here... I can't lose weight but i gain weight (maybe BC i start my period every two weeks... sick I know... What's a girl to do? lol), Another thing is i have "spots" always... the air is so dirty.... then so is my freakin face haha. buh. i know Vain- but since all people do is see me and not talk to me- at least can i look good? nope. i look dirty so people probably assume I'm dirty. I am dirty but at least take the time to find that out. Geezzz people ;) Ok even though No one is going to read this, I'm laughing.
Ok I'm feeling a little guilty ( Weird, do i ever feel guilty?) This is because I sound like i don't love it here... I'm very blessed in all my trips... with a great family that visited me... and great curves do to the weight gain. balls.... yeah I'm a real women in Europe, rather than a stick girl in America.....
given both options... I'm choosing the stick girl in America come may 19Th!!! Mexican food, here i come!!!
So If any of my friends read this.... the girls are wanting to know about the boys! well I don't hate their bad accents anymore but the English are not as good looking ;) ... so I've been on some dates .... One that i liked (ugly but funny)... turned into a psycho. he has anger problems. My be the funnest story of all the guys I've ever gone on dates with. I'll be telling it for yrs. The other one is hot but boring... had the chance to make out and i didn't... too bored. Sad huh? The last one is just too desperate.... he is cool and then he gets insecure and I can't deal with that. Ya know a 30 yr old that is still insecure is what i want... it just turns me on... so much that i have no self control so I can't put myself in such a dangerous situation.
haha... WOW I hope no one reads this ....... I've decided All ppl are crazy and need help but BC I'm from America, I understand them and their crazy behaviors more. I don't understand things like trying to charge me 7 Pd's per night per person on top of rent .... so I wont be paying that ... never agreed to it and i find it a little crazy. I can't wait to long board the Provo cannon and eat Costa Vida and lay out on the roof of my apartment building and make sarcastic and dirty jokes with people who think I'm funny!!!
BC i do what i want when i want and I am freakin funny. Chew on that a while Mr chewy.
OH one more thing.... I want to travel with a suit case the first 4 or 5 months I'm married ... if i get married and live my life in a way that is just what i need and try not to get caught up in the world. After living here... i don't need so many choices... clothes, shoes, makeup... crap really... i just need my family and friends and to love/ serve the people I'm around. I love meeting people and i really do love learning to love all different types.... All those jokes i made... well i think of each person i said them about and I can't help but LOVE them. Their accents, their style and just who they are. The differences we have is what i love. I love that they aren't like me and I love learning the qualities they have... that i need.
For ex... the person trying to charge me extra money.... she is one of the most non judging people I've ever meet.... she doesn't see weirdos as weird but as people... and loves knowing everyone. I love how she can smile when she is pissed.... i think of her and smile. Ha
I also learned that it isn't a big deal if someone doesn't like me... no matter how much i like or love them and am kind to them.... they may not like me... But it does affect me to think i hate them... i don't hate them, when i try not to like someone, I'm sad.... so I'll just accept that I like everyone and may not get to be friends with everyone... that is just one tinny example.
they are my friend or not... either way I'll choose to be happy and love.
Balls I'm going now.....
and leaving you with what i want to live my life by........
Take it easy. Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy. Lighten up while you still can don't even try to understand. Just find a place to make your stand and take it easy.
We may lose and we may win though we will never be here again so open up, I'm climbin' in, so take it easy!
Things the English say a lot
"that's a bit dodgy"
"Proper" about anything!
"posh"
"can't be bothered"
"wicked"
and there will be more to come.... can't think of them right now
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