Things that I love to do

I love to go dancing, I love being around friends and family that love me and you know aren't judging you. I love Sundays and being able to stop and think and focus on an eternal perspective. Zack gave a talk on Sunday. He did an amazing job. It was about charity. I was reading more about it today and will be giving the thought at FHE about it. I was thinking of all the examples in the scriptures where God has sent his prophets back, continually to preach repentance unto "his" people. It is his children, he is charity. He never gives up on them. Also it says in the scriptures that you wont know him without it. It is because he is charity. It says that as well. We can't see him as he is, nor can we see and truly love others as they are if we can't know charity. Knowing the love that is pure and eternal. Forgiving, accepting, not being easily revoked, not prideful, not looking for yourself but thinking of others. Christ is charity. His life was lived for others and out of pure love. If we can't know that and have that, how can we know him? I loved this weekend of dancing and playing and then being reminded of true love. This is something I was to work on gaining for the rest of my life. I don't think there is a better attribute as a mother than charity or pure love of Christ.

anyways- on that note, here is some weird, fun pictures of this weekend.... the only thing missing is the music video we are finishing making. Be excited because good things are yet to come :) haha

So the first bunch of pics are my friends from high school! we had a 80s girls night. Ate loads of food and zacks sisters came and we went to a party to go dancing, after staring our music video. after the party I went bowling with his sisters and that was lots of fun then home to bed.

I have really been overwhelmed with school and work but luckly Zack saves me from that. Example- today him and his little bro surprised me and took me to lunch and tonight we are going meteor shower watching :) One of my fav things to do! Anyways- my life- work (hr stuff), stats, physical science and a religion. Yay. 

(stats and ps suck! just so you're aware. lol)

Love ya always Xx

No body seemed to understand me- Till you came along

All will be forgotten, every tear you've cried

As soon as you awaken to what's right in front of your eyes,

Standing by your side....

I love the way he is always by my side, never lets me go :) 

I love how fun everything is with him and how secure I feel with him

I know he sees me as beautiful, I can see it in his eyes when he looks at me. I just wish I saw myself they way he does. :P

I love our "family", our inside jokes, I love that he thinks my adolescent tendencies are cute ;)

I've loved the way he drives for three years, I love his truck and how safe I feel with him. Always

I love how he gets along with everyone, How he just fits in with my friends, family & with me :)

I love fishing and everything MORE when I'm with him. he is such a good teacher & patient 

I love how we look together and just how we are....

I love his family and how much family means to him. I love family

I love how he makes me laugh.... and I love that he has been my "cowboy" lover for these many years

I love that he'll dress up with me. I love how he isn't vain or worldly. 

I love that we've gone to the temple once a week for most of our relationship. I love how he makes me want to be better. 

I also think he is super hot.... and he lets me make him pose for pictures haha

He is my best friend. I feel so comfortable around. It's amazing

A + Z = <3 

I really do think when I'm with him, my ability to love is greater, my desires for good are greater, and I have the happiness of love with this peace that I've NEVER experienced. Probably because he is just a good guy with one of the best hearts I've ever known. His heart is so pure and good. I love him

Basically this is a lame blog - I'm hoping not many people read this because I sound cheesy and lame but I did want Zack to know how much I love him and how much good he has done for me. Though life is hard, there are trials and other things going on, the moments of happiness and love I experience through getting to know Zack, make all those others moments worth it. I write this after throwing up for the last 4 hours and during that time I was able to think and appreciate the good in my life and not focus on the current state of my body. lol

To end this I just wanted to say my feelings, I sometimes have felt that I don't deserve someone as loving as Zack. I don't feel that way anymore. He is perfect FOR me. Not saying he doesn't have flaws but he is someone that has been able to help me heal from my mistaken views on relationships and men. I love him and his honesty. I love our communication and our no secrets. I'm happy I'm able to know him and be with him. That is all....

I love nature because I feel am able to think and feel peace. It is like it says in Mosiah 18:30 when it is talking about the beautiful waters and place of Mormon "....how beautiful are they to the eyes of them who there came to the knowledge of their Redeemer; yea, and how blessed are they, for they shall sing to his praise forever" I know that there is divinity within us and we can feel it when we listen. I feel it best in the beautiful creations the Lord has given us. I also love that I can get that same feeling when I'm with z-attack <3

I'm cheesy and lame- "what do you do to me"

Love always

A.D.Wick

XoXxx

"I'm done"

OK so I know this is gross, if you are a sensitive guy go ahead and stop reading.... NOW.

I have a period every other week for over two months so they put me on Aviane. I had two three simi periods in that month of taking it, mood swings and basically it has sent me into depression. Know one except Zack and my mom are aware of this but then I was just reading side affects of this stuff and IT SUCKS. I'm not the only one, so I don't feel as crazy. I was told to take yaz instead. So I went to this website and read about yaz. Guess what? it is good for about six months then there are other side affects. Not mood swings or depression but weight gain and blood clots. Instead of having a regular period, you have no period. So I'm not sure what to do. If anyone reads this and knows a good birth control that wont make me insane, share with me now, Puhh-lease <3

http://www.askapatient.com/rateyourmedicine.htm

that is the web page where I read about this stuff. I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't experienced first hand how horrible Aviane is. Worst experience of my life.


On that happy note, Happy almost fourth of July. I love you America <3

All That I Have

We will be alright,
I'll be by your side
I wont let you down
But I gotta know,
No matter how things go
That you will be alright

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you all
That I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Underneath the moon,
Underneath the starts
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

Belief In Something More

So a lot of new things have been going on. First of all I'm dating a boy named Zack and he is amazing to me. Second off I am almost finished with BYU and probably by default UTAH! I am looking for a job and finishing my internship at this Home, Health and Hospice place. I am doing HR work. I'm learning a lot about the hiring process and doing performance appraisals. It's been a lot of fun. I put simi ok descriptions by the following photos. The first photo is of my boy and I at temple square. I sorta like him.

Camping with Angie and Coogan was a lot of fun!

We went to Topaz Mountains for Memorial Day family camp out. His family. So much fun. 

 Pirate Island! Arrgh matey 

 Matching nighties in colorado






I love my family and graduation :)

We had a huge group date at Boondocks and it was loads of fun.

Happy is the heart that still feels pain

Darkness drains and light will come again

I like positive thinking (sometimes). I never like to state anything as always true or say that I always feel a certain way. I do feel that most people just are looking for happiness and the most of the time people intentions are not bad but misguided. I want to keep the perspective that everyone is just looking for happiness and through all of the sadness is how was learn grow and find happiness.

Sometimes I drain myself to the point where I'm so tired and can't imagine feeling love for anyone... this includes friends, family, boy's ever again, children. Ha I just feel nothing and I don't think that is healthy. I really do know that the atonement 'satisfies the demands of justice' and that the trails of life are just shaping up for a greater happiness to come. I love reading 2Nephi 4 and the last two verses give me strength.... kind of like certain songs give me strength and this song is a new one that I love. It will be my fav for a few days till I move on- sorta like I do with boys... haha jk?

Now that I've been all "sweet" Let me post something that makes me laugh

anyone else a little concerned with how much obama knows about the teams in this year's ncaa basketball ?

Sooo to catch anyone up on my life, I work, I go to school, I play badminton and I go running.... this is sooo ugly of me.... haha

if you are going to play... play well

Cartoons & Forever Plans

For my class I need to write daily and today I'm writing in my blog. My good friend is leaving! It is sad because I am graduating and more likely than not, I will never see these good friends again. These friends that I made and kept over these six years. I can't believe it's been that long. I still feel like a child in a lot of ways. Anyways, I love my friends. During the CES fireside, the story about the boy in young mens and President Monson, made me cry. I thought of my good friends from when I was that age, that I haven't seen for ten years and started to tear up at how much I love them still and want the best for them. It is hard to say goodbye. I don't regret my experiences. I'm trying to learn from them. Anyways this blog is mostly for my good friend that is leaving and for my class lol! He'll always hold a special place in my heart. I have such amazing examples for my friends.

Music always says what I feel better than I can.




"There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save"
Stars, Your Ex-lover is dead.