Cartoons & Forever Plans

For my class I need to write daily and today I'm writing in my blog. My good friend is leaving! It is sad because I am graduating and more likely than not, I will never see these good friends again. These friends that I made and kept over these six years. I can't believe it's been that long. I still feel like a child in a lot of ways. Anyways, I love my friends. During the CES fireside, the story about the boy in young mens and President Monson, made me cry. I thought of my good friends from when I was that age, that I haven't seen for ten years and started to tear up at how much I love them still and want the best for them. It is hard to say goodbye. I don't regret my experiences. I'm trying to learn from them. Anyways this blog is mostly for my good friend that is leaving and for my class lol! He'll always hold a special place in my heart. I have such amazing examples for my friends.

Music always says what I feel better than I can.




"There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save"
Stars, Your Ex-lover is dead.

Friends

I just wanted to post some videos and pictures of my friends. I've had the best friends ever! Some have been in my life for 7 or 8 years and some just for 2 or 3, BUT all of them know me and are always there for me. They give me the best advice or no advice and show up with star bucks at 1 AM without talking to me in weeks... they just know! lol.

To end this post... In my life currently I play mom (I nanny). I get them ready, take them to school then I gym it up. I do homework then I pick them up and then I go to class. I have a calling and I also attend the temple once a week for my calling. I play intramural soccer with my friend Em and we tore up this week. On the weekends, I watch football or go to the games!!! I have a internship I think for my cap stone, I just have to get the paper work finished and then I'll be even more busy! It'll be with drug and alcohol addicts. I will be working in a residential home with them!!! Life is good. I love everything I've been doing and the people in my life are amazing. The end. <3>

Impatient

So I have a hard time being alone..... I need close secure relationships... 

Well I don't know what I'm looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more
And I won't be satisfied
'Till there's nothing left that I haven't tried
For some people it's an easy choice
But for me there's a devil and an angel's voice
Well I don't know what I am looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more

Well I don't know what I'm living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more
And you hear it from strangers
And you hear it from friends
That love never dies, love never ends
Now I don't wanna argue, no I don't wanna fight
'Cause you're always wrong and I'm always right
Well I don't know what I am living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more

I used to be involved, and I felt like a king
Now I've lost it all and I don't feel a thing
I may never grow old, I may never give in
And I'll blame this world that I live in
I visit hell on a daily basis
I see the sadness in all your faces
I've got friends who have married
And their lives seem complete
Here I am still stumbling down a darkened street

And I act like a child and I'm insecure
And I'm filled with doubt and I'm immature
Sometimes it creeps up on me and before I know it
I'm lost at sea
But no matter how far I row
I always find my way back home
But I don't know what I've been waiting for
But I know that I don't wanna wait anymore

Help Me Rhonda, Help!

My goal for the summer....

Race name :	Bountiful Triathlon
Date :	8/8/2009
Address :	550 N 200 W Bountiful, Utah 84010
Country :	United States
Race type :	Triathlon (Mini Sprint)
Organization :
Website :	http://www.bountifultriathlon.com/
	Swim 0.32 kms   Bike 18.5 kms   Run 5 kms

I have started training and I hope I'm ready in time....

Cloak Of Secrecy

I got to help out a friend in London and I say got to because it was way too much fun for me. I really enjoyed having someone paint my face and dress me in something that I would never normally wear.  Since then I have been thinking a lot about disguises aka clothes, make up or just "fashion". I love and hate it.... it is this on going relationship I have with it. I just attended the sweetest wedding... sweet as in sorta humble and it was very enjoyable. It wasn't a poor person but it also wasn't over the top. It was "sweet". Right before this wedding I watched 20 most expensive weddings on tv.... wow they were also "Swwweet!".

This thought doesn't have a conclusion or a solution ... meaning it isn't complete. I was just thinking about happiness and different masks, cloaks, disguises we use and how it seems to effect us. There are more cloaks than just "fashion". 

If you have any thoughts you wanna share, please do!!! Xxx

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

The way I feel inside..... 

LOL

I love this movie way too much....

Mana from heaven, sweet nectar of life

The picture below is the bridge my friend and I walked across and is also in Harry Potter... The love of my life. 

I'm torn between Utah and Arizona... school, work, what I want to do or what I should do. Either way could be what I should do and either way could be what I want to do.......

should do... could do..... would do...... 

Net Force

My mind is going to fast for me to explain everything that I've written... Above is Newton's 2nd Law: talking about how the motion and the motive force behind the motion..... if a force generates a motion, a double force will generate a double motion and so on.... this also still is true whether that force be impressed is altogether and at once or gradually (this motion being directed the same way with the generating force). 

That being said..... I was over thinking the laws of human nature and human attraction and what forces are behind it so where what did I decide to over read? Laws of attraction and motion and I really enjoyed it and I really enjoy physics. 

So I am much as I learn and as much and I observe, the less I know. I know absolutely nothing! Accepting that to be true has brought me so joy in knowing, I get to learn forever and always be surprised! How great is that? I think it is great.... which is why this is my blog and my opinion and why I'm writing about it.


OK so I totally have a crush, No one knows (or at least I hope not... I'm bad at hiding things) or will know bc it is not logical, he isn't my type and I don't want to date him.... but some force beyond me makes me want to just pounce him. Yeah I said it.....  Oh well..... I have more thoughts on this but I'm not going to share them unless asked.

I have certain things I am attracted to ... I know I am.... one being romantic nerds like me..... I love and adore this

"He is the half part of a blessed man, left to be finished by such as she. And she a fair divided excellence, whose fullness of perfection lies in him." 

William Shakespeare

I also love adore my best friend who is getting engaged this weekend. It has been really hard on me.... never knew loosing him would be this hard.

Another thing is I've been reading about Karma... and other peoples perspectives... so different religions and what not... I thought this angry person was funny and what he said I can't repeat but I can repeat one part.... which is

WHATEVER WE SEE - WE CREATE, THAT IS OUR KARMA

Well I'm not going to try and sleep longer than 3 hrs.... I shouldn't be up..... Love to all of you and especially England. I miss my friends there and their "wicked" way of speaking.... I want to go back. The End